First and foremost, if you all haven’t felt it, the apocolpsye has started. We all thought the first sign was Matt getting a job but apparently it is Spiegs having a kid. Congratulations Mr. Spiegs, you’ll be a great dad and I can’t wait to teach your kid how to play football, we totally can use Labar’s yard. And I’d be willing to bed that he already knows more about the 80’s than 1/2 of the country.
Spent 3 days up in Santa Fe after work this week, first time I’ve hiked up there and saw the city outside of a car window. Thursday – keeping that one for myself. Friday went and did habitat for humanity, worked like a real worker for the first time since I can remember, lifting trusses and putting up fences is considerably more work than writing on the nuances of a Human Resources Information System. The family that we were building for came over to thank us for the work and made me feel like a shithead for giving up on everything I believed in for the corporate dollar. I think there’s a balance there that i haven’t found yet. I can do more than I’ve been doing that’s for certain, hopefully I can start using my time better than work, homework, and television. After Habitat went to the Railyard opening beer garden dealie but couldn’t enjoy too much beer cause I had to drive back down to the Abq. Saturday I spent moving my living room into my spare bedroom because I’ve finally given up on the idea that the couches i bought not one year ago are ever going to be comfortable, so now I have a reading room. Speaking of reading, I’ve managed to burn through a couple books, don’t worry mom you won’t like any of them no pretty houses, nice clothes and no sex. 1,000 splendid suns was alright, kite runner was ultimately the better of the two so far but overall definitely worth the read. The story of forgetting – such a heartbreaking book. I don’t recommend unless you want to just be depressed for a week, but I loved it nonetheless. I’m about to finish Sherman Alexie’s new book, Flight. I’m only around a year late reading, don’t understand a damn thing that’s going on, but I felt the same way about Sound and the Fury and it’s still a top 10 book for me.
This isn’t coming easy tonight, I’m full of thoughts but fail to put them down right. I’ve deleted and restarted this 100 times – just not coming out. this week just made me feel really lucky, and good. Not that There has been a catalyst to start this process, just that things aren’t as bad or good as they always seem. I see this asian man occasionally, and he always has the same advice for me “keep level.” I always think that it’s the best advice he can give, no matter the highs or the lows, you keep level, keep perspective on everything and it will be alright. I just smile at him and nod, like I know exactly what he means and tell him every time “I’ll try.” Keeping level isn’t easy, I tend to always overthink and take singular events to a finality that I’m not prepared for. Maybe if I just take his advice, keep everything level and just see what happens then I’ll be alright. Now he may just be talking about the Won Ton soup I buy from him, but I think we both know he’s talking in a much more existential sense. He also tells me 8 minute – I still haven’t figured that one out just yet, but man he sounds wise just saying it.